Cliff

Everything I’ve ever known,

everything I’ll ever be

Is staring from the bottom of the cliff that’s right in front of me

And how I long to jump from this height, knowing it’s with purpose

To meet the bottom that I’ve never seen

And yet I ask myself if it’s worth it.

Let me die but let me live knowing that most of me has died

Let me live without the weight that slowly kills me inside

You know nothing of how deep this pain runs, it affects my whole being

And I’ve come to terms with the fact that I must continue to live without seeing

Is this purgatory?

Mourning what was, knowing it will never get better

Holding out hope for what comes ahead and writing out my death letter by letter.